Lost

I used to fill that empty hole
but now I'm barely needed.
Feels like someone came and stole
the one thing that's kept me breathing.
I hate to make this all about me
but I am who I am.
All I want is for the feeling to leave
I'm treading on broken land.
My feelings hurt from inside out
but it's no one's fault but my own.
I don't know what this is about
you made me feel at home.
Now sometimes I'm like a stranger
when I can't express.
My sadness turns into anger
I'm sorry, I digress.

Uh

What the hell?
I don't know if I'm overreacting or what.
But this is hurting my heart.
Every time I think about the possible outcome, my chest burns.
I want to get answers, but I can't.
Everything I know and have lived for in the past couple years may be crashing down.
Only reason why I haven't reacted openly is because I have trust.
I believe it's not even an option.
So, until further notice, I will be excited for what's to come and brush of my worries.
Because for all that I know, I'm just being ridiculous.

I hope that I'm being ridiculous.

Pretty sure

I need to go to therapy.
I need an unbiased person to tell me when I'm right and wrong.
Someone to tell the fucked up shit to.
Someone to hear me out in situation when I'm being tossed aside.

I'd just really like to figure out if I'm really being that fucking ridiculous.